On this day 2/3/09.

I woke up feeling sick this morning. It's crazy to go to sleep healthy and wake up ill. It reminds me that anything can change at anytime without notice. It is up to us to honor these moments and honor each other. I was talking to my younger brother recently about the fear and sadness we feel when thinking of the inevitable passing of our 77 year old granny. She is the glue. She is the women that holds our dreams in her bolsa. She is everything to all of us. Our family is huge and she is the pillar that keeps the foundation locked.
Speaking about this made us both reflect on our realtionships with others and also the ways in which we honor ourselves. It is so important to love yourself. Some mornings I dont recognize the image reflecting in the mirror. I am everchanging. Ever-moving toward complete love of self. This is the hardest challenge I have faced. It is simple to pour love out on others but how true is it if the well it flows from isnt pure. My well is in constant need of refreshing and cleansing. Knowing this keeps me on point. I am not and never will be perfect. But love is perfect and if I can strive to attain pure love of self and others I may just taste a bit of that perfection. God's perfection.